Confession Time: First Day School Blues

School Girl

It’s not T that’s for sure.  It’s actually me!  What’s even more embarrassing about this, is that this isn’t T’s first day in school, she came back as a Year 2 and is now actually considered one of the “older kids”.  I know I really should get a grip with myself.  I’ve been a bundle of emotions ever since she turned six.  Come on woman, stiff-upper lip!  No more of this nonsense! Yes, I have been trying to snap out of this soppiness.  I’m hoping it will be all gone come Monday morning.

Thank goodness T breezed through first day with nary a whinge or a tear.  Yes, she stood by my side and didn’t run around the playground like the other kids and only moved away from me when her friends came over to collect her.  When the bell rang, my husband and I said goodbye and she trotted off without even looking back, so different from the tearful reception girl two years ago.

As for me? I came home with a heavy heart.  I’m glad though that a good friend (mum of one of T’s closest friends) came home with me and as we chatted and sipped our coffee I felt a wave of emptiness wash over me.  My friend felt it too, even though she still has another child at home with her, we bemoaned what felt like the loss of our kids, even though in reality they were in school probably running around like loonies in the playground, not thinking about their over-emotional parents at all.

The truth is, if my husband and I had a choice we’d like little T to stay with us at home and wouldn’t mind homeschooling her.  I read blogs by mums who home educate their little ones and envy how much time they spend with their kids.  My husband and I love having our daughter with us. We love her company, doing things with her, and having little chats with her.  We genuinely like having her with us.  Perhaps that’s one of the reasons why we’ve never used a babysitter.  If we can’t go to a place or attend an event that won’t allow us to bring her, then we’re not going.  It’s as simple as that.  Our daughter goes where we go.  But as much as we would love for her to be home-schooled, I’m afraid it won’t be a good option for T.

My little girl is a lot like me, you see.  We’re both quiet and reserved people.  T is friendly and will smile at anyone who smiles at her, but she won’t run up to other kids like her friends until she’s feeling comfortable enough to do so.  It takes her awhile to warm up, but once she has, she’ll run around like a loony and be like any other child her age.

We feel that home-schooling her might make her feel wary of people and other children.  I’m not saying all home-schooled children are like that.  All kids are different and we know our daughter well.

On the one hand though, she has an inner strength I really admire.  When her friends were quitting gymnastics because it got too “scary” for them, my little T persevered and didn’t quit.  She’s not a quitter and I’m really proud of her.  At the moment, we’re lucky that the village school she goes to is a lovely one, where the teachers and students are supportive and she loves it there. We will only consider other options, if the wind changes.  For now, we’re staying put.

What about you?

Would you consider home-schooling your kids too?

Do share.


  1. Mellissa Williams

    I think home schooling works well for a lot of parents. You do need to have the knowledge on how to do it though and it helps if you have some specialist skills in certain areas. Everything can be learnt though. Let me know if you do it.
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    • My husband actually teaches History with the Open University and I have a degree in English Literature … might help a little, but yes, definitely agree with you! T is really happy with her current school and so are we, but if that changes, wouldn’t think twice about home schooling her 🙂

    • True. But I think it also has more to do with patience than having a degree (which my husband and I both have). We’re not choosing that option just yet, but if we do, will make sure that we both have what it takes 😉 x

  2. Gemma Nuttall

    Oh lovely, I completely understand what you’re saying. It’s tough isn’t it…
    Well done Little T, she is a very resilient and brave little thing isn’t she. Lovely personality traits.
    Sadly home schooling isn’t for us but i take my hat off to those who do it. My boys love the independence they have at school but it would be nice to have them home to have more experiences with them.
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    • She’s really loving school, so I wouldn’t home school her either. I’m just glad she’s going to a wonderful school with a small population. She probably won’t like it if it were a big school.xx

  3. Susan Croox

    I am currently homeschooling my daughter. I wouldn’t mind her going to school as I imagine it would be great for her, but I know I’d miss her, too!

    • T loves school especially her current school. To take her away from it and all her friends, would just be too cruel. Otherwise, if she didn’t like it, like I mentioned we would choose homeschooling too in a heartbeat 🙂

  4. In my opinion, children need to socialize. Even if they look sad leaving their parents, they need to face real life challenges. I can imagine how hard it is, but I guess that’s life 🙂 x

    • I agree with you. And she’s loving school, so for now, she’s staying there. Though of course I also understand why other parents would feel the need to homeschool their kids for whatever reasons they have.

  5. Candy Mercado

    Well, I have a confession. It goes along with your point that all children are different. My son is in kindergarten now and he’s fine. Last year I sent him off to VPK and I was so confident with him. This year, it was my middle child’s turn to start VPK and I was so anxious. I actually tried to convince my husband for homeschool. She has a different personality and I had to let my fears go. It’s only been a few weeks but she is blossoming. It’s ultimately your decision and I completely understand your reservations. I had them too. Best of luck!

    • I’m so glad your youngest has blossomed and is really enjoying school. T struggled on the first week when she first started school but she got over it. This year she didn’t even give us a second look on the first day of school.

  6. I don’t think homeschooling is something I would do but I respect everybody points of view. I really enjoyed school where I had my best memories, I really want my children to experience this…but I’m french and now we are in England, so school is different here, we don’t have uniforms, we don’t have packed lunches…so it will be interesting to see actually !
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    • Wouldn’t it be lovely if they didn’t have uniforms here too? My daughter will love that 🙂 x

  7. I hope it has got easier for you. I have and if school ever isn’t right I would do it. BUT my little boy has special needs and my older one is very bright and I just couldn’t manage both of their educations at once – not to do them justice imo.
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    • I’m better thanks. Like you mentioned, if the school isn’t right, we’d do it too. Thankfully, our village school is lovely and has only about 60 kids or even less for the whole school. All the teachers and kids are supportive. T loves it 🙂

  8. Sara-Jayne

    I totally would. I wanted to for the first two years of my oldest being at school since he just wanted to be at home. I also just miss them so much when they’re not here.

    • It’s a tough choice isn’t it? At the moment, my daughter is loving her school. x

  9. Harriet from Toby & Roo

    Personally I wouldn’t homeschool. If i had one child – totally, but I couldn’t with the three. I lack the patience, funds and ability to structure the day. It would become less fun and more burden and that isn’t how schooling should be right? Also, eldest has been back for two days and now I’m missing him but with tough work demands I could have SKIPPED when they first went in at 9am haha! H x
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    • I agree, with three children, it must really be difficult to do it. And yes, home schooling shouldn’t be a burden but an experience to enjoy with the kids. We only have T, that’s why it’s easy for me to say that if something happened in school, we wouldn’t think twice about homeschooling her.

  10. Christine - The Choosy Mommy

    There is no way that I would be able to homeschool my kids. I just don’t have the patience for them and we learn in different ways. However, there are times that I wish there was another option. Maybe I could hire someone to teach them in my home. But then I worry about their social life. So hard!

    • When they’re older, there are online schools like Oxford Open learning where you can get tutors for particular subjects they’re interested in or having difficulty with 🙂 I can imagine you can also find tutors in your area if you preferred a face-to-face tutorial 🙂

  11. Naya @ Lactivist in Louboutins

    I have many friends who homeschool their children. Unfortunately, I feel that I would be doing my kids a disservice by trying to teach them. My oldest started school this year and I have the same feelings about it. Mixed emotions indeed!
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    • With the current situation, my daughter loving school and all that, it would indeed be a disservice and even cruel to take her out of a school she loves so much. But like I mentioned, if the wind changes and something happens, we wouldn’t think twice about pulling her out and letting her stay at home 🙂

  12. Fashion and Style Police

    I know for a fact I would feel the same way once my kids start school. I think they will strive though. Home schooling isn’t for us.

    • Homeschooling isn’t for everyone I guess. At the moment, it isn’t for us either.

  13. Awe. I can totally relate. My oldest just started 1st grade, and I was just as much of a mess as when he started kindergarten last year. T sounds like such a sweet girl, and I can see why you all enjoy spending time together. I have thought about homeschooling, but I feel my son needs the social interaction as well.

  14. I think different things work for different people. I’ve known families who have kids who do both homeschooling and go to school. The first day of school blues are real.

  15. Niki @ Toot's Mom is Tired

    My daughter is only a year old but I’ve already thought about homeschooling. In theory, I’d love to do it. But both of us work and I want her to get the school experience that we had. I plan on doing extra at home with her when she comes home from school like expanding on what she’s learning or learning new things that she wouldn’t in school.

  16. Lisa Lambert (mumdadplus4)

    Ah bless, I feel lost now when the twins go to nursery on Tuesday and Thursday the house is so so quiet but I am actually enjoying the break with 4 kids life gets very hectic and it’s nice to take a few minutes

  17. Lisa Lambert (mumdadplus4)

    I feel lost when the boys go to nursery but it’s really nice to just take a minute because with 4 kids life is pretty hectic here

  18. claire justine

    I felt a bit sad when mine went back to school. My daughter went to secondary school and I still wiped a tear from my eyes. I think schools are great, they make friends socialise and learn so much. I admire people who home school too, that do an amazing job.

    I could never learn my kids what school learns them as I’m not that clever, my husband could but he works.
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    • I guess at any age, when they go back to school, parents still somehow feel a little bit bereft 😉

  19. Jordanne | Thelifeofaglasgowgirl

    It’s really nice that The is enjoying school but I can only imagine the school blues you have! I can’t empathise yet with school but even my little one going to nursery for a few hours a day still kills me a little. It’s nice you have the the thought of homeschooling but if the school works for T that’s great!

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  20. Zena's Suitcase

    I’ve literally just had this conversation with someone, and I know home schooling wouldn’t suit us at all. I envy people who can do it, but I’m not patient enough and my children are all quite strong willed. It would end in tears, probably mine


    We have never used a babysitter either but that’s more because I’ve been scared off using them with horror stories I have heard. I don’t think I could cope with home schooling my two with mini man around aswell.
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    • That’s one of the reason why we were hesitant to use a babysitter no matter the recommendations!

  22. Kate Brooks

    I home school my son part time. He goes to school half the hours of a normal student. You know your child and as emotional as the transition is whether your going to or from homeschooling – you know whats best for your girl at that time.

    • That is so true. At the moment, like I said, she is loving it and would be too cruel to take her out now.

  23. Tiffany @ shortsweetmom

    It sounds like you and your husband have a lovely relationship with your daughter. I was homeschooled all the way through high school. Will I homeschool my own children? It depends on the kids I think. I agree with you that every child is different and some thrive at homeschooling and others benefit more from going to school. We will see what the future holds.

    • We do indeed, thanks! Maybe because, she’s our only daughter. As mentioned already, to take her out now would really be cruel and selfish. Will only consider that option if ever the need arises.

  24. Children need to learn how to socialize and spend time with kids of their own age. I don’t think I would home school my children.
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    • Yes, especially with my daughter’s personality 😉 It’s important for her to mix like you mentioned.

  25. Homeschooling is my dream! I’m not sure if I will be able to but I really hope I can continue to work from home so that I can homeschool my son. Of course, you make a great point that it might not be for all kids. I’m glad you’re friend was with you on the first day of school. 🙂

    • Homeschooling would suit us too, but I’m afraid not my daughter. Like I said though, if things change, we wouldn’t think twice about pulling her out of mainstream education.

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